On my “Meditations on Monsters” post you have decided to leave a comment regarding my hypocrisy (I am apparently a “badge bully”, and “just as bad as the criminals”, and “happy that no-one is judging” me).
This is apparently based on a sentence in my “Well … that’s awkward” post, in which I somewhat poetically describe the application of a mandibular angle pressure point hold during a Use of Force.
What I didn’t put in that little post — because I was going for humour, rather than drama — was the description of the mass amounts of blood streaming from the four-inch laceration to the forehead of a somewhat-innocent third party that precipitated my being there.
I didn’t describe the minutes of trying to talk the person into dropping the shank — because I tend to go for humour on my blog.
I didn’t describe my snap-decision to rush the guy with the blood-covered shank when he was distracted — rather than wait until the SWAT team showed up and put a load of buckshot into his face — because folks (other than you) read my blog for the funny parts.
I didn’t describe the fear I felt when I realized that trainees and young officers assigned to my shift had followed my lead and jumped onto a mentally-disturbed, armed inmate — fear that I might get one of my people stabbed or worse following me.
I didn’t describe the jolt of terror I felt when the slick little bastard turned under me, and I lost my grip on his blood-covered blade arm.
I described the mandibular angle hold I used to convince that MHMR-strong, armed, blood-slick inmate to let go of his shank so he could be handcuffed, instead of killed, and used it as a humorous part of a funny tale. A funny tale that I wrote — here on my blog — as my way of dealing with the stress of the job.
Because that’s what I do on my blog.
As far as you assertion that I am a monster — this I do not deny. I am a monster from way further back than this law enforcement career.
However, I do tend to think that another post I wrote here — linked — should adequately describe how I feel about my monster-ness. A pity you didn’t investigate — read my writings — further.
As I noted in your comment on the other thread: your concerns as to my monster-ness are duly noted.